I made a new personal blog that’s actually going to be public. There’s one post so far, but if you guys want to read into my personal life & thoughts, then go right ahead. I’m not expecting anyone to follow me, this is just a little project I would like to do. I’m trying to start a clean honest slate with myself and my peers, and I believe that writing in this blog will help me achieve my goals.
Honestly, I’m just a sad person living a sad life. I fuck everything up. Every single friendship and relationship, ruined because of my stupidity. It’s no wonder why I can’t make my family proud of me or keep people close to me for a long period of time. I can’t just hide these feelings any more. I’m not just going to pretend that my life is perfect and I’m always happy. I’m not, this year proved that nothing about my life is perfect. I still love someone who once hurt me, yet I’m currently in a relationship. It amazes me how much of a fuck up I am. I don’t know any more. I just don’t know what to do with my life.
Tumblr is strange. It’s a website filled with millions of people and blogs. We reblog things from our dashboard, follow countless people, yet we’re so silent. We’re all so lonely and anti-social. They say that you’re different when you’re online, you’re more open and social. But, on here? My followers rarely ever talk to me. Sometimes I question my being on here.
I saw a post earlier that read ‘…tumblr isn’t just about gaining followers.’ Which we all know is bullshit. We all worry about how many likes and reblogs we get. We all wish we had that extra hundred of followers. I can’t say that I love my followers and appreciate every single one of them, because I don’t know who the fuck they are. None of them go out of their way to talk to me, and whenever I try to, they all ignore me. So what’s the point of being on here when you’re not pleasing anyone but yourself? Nobody knows of your blog or who you are as a person.
I know I’m not even going to get a single like from this post & I’m going to forget about this rant within minutes and go back to reblogging pictures from strangers to make my blog look pretty.